Monday, August 07, 2006
i think the whole world should just perish now even my mom. i hope some huge tsunami will come swallow her up so i dont have to see her ever again. okay i dint mean that. but sometimes her gets on my nerves & today was really the last last last straw. she keeps thinking im not studying & all that nonsense. seriously its killing me okay. mothers, they always think they're right. you reason with them, they think you're being rude. you keep quiet, they think they're right, thus they can go on & on about their analogy which again, fucking kills me.
i feel like just shooting her sometimes. URGH! son of a bitch!
this was supposedly a happy post on my Bintan trip but anyhow, sports trip was hokay. i had an amazing activity grp and sleeping grp. hiking totally killed me & at one point i just wanted to jump off the mountain. other than that, facilities were the best amongst my four years of sports trips and sorry hockers, i dont intend on putting any photos up.
THERE GOES MY MOM AGAIN! someone please just kill me! or i think im gonna kill myself soon. okay i think im pmsing real bad. really, my mom gives me many reasons to feel fucked. & not like anyone understands?! they just say the standard replies like "aiyah dont so stress. everything will be okay." no! nothing's gonna be okay! dont you all realise what you say does not help at all? in fact i think it makes things worse, cause i'll feel even more alone & when i think anybody cares at all, actually nobody cares. SHEESH why am i actually computing emotions into an emotionless object. oh god to hell with the world.
Reaching for the whipping rain,